After all the things I’ve through this past year (and even a bit more), it is time for a new beginning. I think I’ve already started anew in a number of ways, but I also need to begin anew consciously. Every once in a while, everybody needs a new beginning, traumatizing events or not. Living in a state of regret and fear is tiring, and I don’t want the bitterness about what has happened to me to take hold within me and take space – space that could be filled with beautiful things.
That’s why it is so wonderful that it’s the Jewish New Year, the Days of Awe, and Yom Kippur who are around now – and that I’m jewish. This time is all about new beginnings, and lifting ourselves higher. Some people put others down because they can’t lift themselves up – but this time invites us to do just the opposite, and clean out all that old stuff that hinders us; to clean it out with honesty, authenticity, love and openness, and with goodness towards ourselves and towards the other whom I may have wronged, too.
It is a time to try, and adopt a different perspective and try to see during this time what God sees: a wonderful person with so much potential that just waits to be realized; a person that is unique and precious. New beginnings are there so we can become this person, the person we’ve always wanted to be. We may have messed it up, or circumstances may have messed with our life, people may have hurt us – here is the opportunity to start again.
Where are my roots? What is important to me – truly important? If I look closely, I see that what really matters, is what lies inside. Sometimes it is hidden, but with some training, my eyes will start to see it, just like it takes time to get accustomed to seeing in the dark of a cave – and suddenly you remark a thousand drops of water sparkling and glistening even with only a tiny amount of light.
God, mother and father of my mothers and fathers,
of my sisters and brothers,
of my children:
I come to you with empty hands, and a heart full of memories.
The wheel of the year has completed its round,
And the books lie open before you.
You don’t need my words, my prayers, my cries and me asking for forgiveness
for you already see the whispers, tears, and cries of my heart
But I need them
They liberate me
Liberate me from the wrongs that have been done in either direction,
as I choose to let them go
Letting only You be my Judge, my Creator
means I don’t need to fear the judgement of others,
nor bow down to their opinions
And as I take care of myself,
of my beloved,
of my neighbor,
of your bountiful creation
I have nothting to fear from your Judgement
I can bring alive dreams of peace and love and joy
For to love You
is to bring these into this world.